There is no line between my social justice and my love of speculative fiction. There is no line between the sort of politicians and public voices I thrill to and the way I dream. There is no line between the sorts of things I am moved to write essays about and the stories I want to tell. There is no sharp wall. There is only a flow, from one to another.
“Make Donald Dr*mpf Again.”
I’ve disemvoweled the surname. I understand why it’s become viral. Please don’t splain the logic and the rationale to me. I don’t object out of ignorance or a lack of understanding about political humor, satire, or the indictment of hypocrisy.
Seriously, if you’ve been reading here, and if you know me from elsewhere, you know that I’m well aware of the mechanics of all three.
Yet again, I’m disturbed by the willingness of the avowed liberal side to engage in Othering tactics that have collateral damage in the form of immigrants and the visibly unassimilable. Nearly 100% of the apologetics I’m seeing for John Oliver’s mocking takedown of Trump are from people who have never been faced with claims that they are unAmerican (and don’t belong) because of their “clearly foreign” surname, or whose appearance never elicits the questioning of their citizenship or right of residency.
For the rest of us…this isn’t going to have a limited impact. It fuels Anglo-normalization, and the questioning of “non-foreign” surnames for those of us who are visibly non-white in our ancestry. You wouldn’t condone using homophobia to combat homophobia. Or at least I hope you wouldn’t.
There are other ways to take him down.
The reframing of “do not be mean to people” as “well they should toughen up” coming from self-identified liberals really chills me.
Desensitization therapy is something done *under controlled circumstances*.
This thing where you tell people to just get over it, it’s not Real (as defined by non-sensitized people) … this morning it’s reminding me of corrective rape.
The whole world saw your face crumple as the verdict was read.
Did you think, up until that moment, that the Thin Blue Line would protect you? Not even thirty and your life is done.
Back when the story started to come out, despite the media labeling you as “white”, I wondered, looking at your face, whether you had significant East Asian or Pacific Islander heritage. It’s not always apparent, but…you look like people I know. Was it rough, growing up hafu in Oklahoma in the ’90s? Did you learn to assimilate out of a desire to escape racism, or were you raised by parents who thought that Model Minority would be sufficient to protect you? Wikipedia says your father was also a cop. Maybe that was shield enough (and maybe I intend that pun).
Did you learn to be that sort of racist jerk naturally from your buddies, or did you learn to try to out racist all of them to show that you’re not one of “them”, to try to perform acts of racism as (maybe desperate) proof of your whiteness? Did you learn it playing football? Did you do it because you didn’t make the NFL draft the way you’d dreamed? (Pity, that. A bunch of Asian Americans would have been thrilled.) Did you learn it on the police force?
But you know, I don’t care. I don’t care why, because you played the role of The Man, devastating the lives of dozens of women that we know of. Targeted because they looked powerless to you. Easy to identify because of a racist environment where Black women can be presumed not to have the clout to speak up against police abuse. Maybe an “understandable” assumption in a time when we’ve seen so many Black and brown lives destroyed.
You made a choice. A stupid, evil choice. We all know why it was evil. I want to underline why it was stupid. (My children have been educated by their school and their peers to believe that stupid is one of the worst epithets ever, by the way. They are young. They’re Asian on their mom’s side, like you—but I hope that’s the only way they’re like you.)
The latest reports claim that you mouthed, “How could you do this?” to the all-white jury. I saw your face and I wonder if that was the moment you finally learned that there’s no way for you to assimilate enough to be Really White Enough. Maybe I was lucky—I learned that in my teens. I didn’t get The Talk that Black kids in white suburbia get, about how it’s stupid and dangerous to let your white friends talk you into doing questionable crap, because when it comes down to it, your white friends will get off with a slap on the wrist, but your brown ass will end up with the full measure. Maybe where you grew up your white cop dad was enough, for the kinds of things you did when you were growing up. Or maybe you thought once you had that badge and that gun that you’d made it.
I’m guessing that your mother is like mine. Raised in a land where the police are viewed as friendly helpers. Maybe she doesn’t quite understand how racism works. But again, I don’t care.
There’s a current myth, especially around where you grew up, that all cops are heroes. I’ve never thought that, but you could have been a hero by my definition. You had a chance to be the sort of cop everyone hopes for. The one that stands up to be the good guy. But you made a choice, to be abusive, over and over again.
…and you did it thinking you were invulnerable.
The problem with being part of the Model Minority, and not the profiled Other that is disproportionately incarcerated, is that there aren’t many like you behind bars, and it’s a place where all the stresses of our culture intensify under pressure. They say cops don’t do well in prison. They say people who don’t have a strong buddy system around them don’t survive. They say other things, too, but I’m not going to repeat those. I don’t believe in corrective rape for anyone.
But man. That was stupid on top of evil. Don’t make bargains with the Devil, especially ones that involve destroying other people’s lives. Especially when in the end, you smell like sacrificial meat, too. And now you’re an eventual Life Lesson for all the kids of mixed heritage I know, who think they’re white-passing. Don’t count on it. Especially when you’re doing things you shouldn’t be doing regardless.
I wrote this on my Facebook wall one year ago today, in three successive status posts.
2014: Groundhog Day comes to social justice. It’s fifty years after Freedom Summer, but it all looks so similar. Feds needing to step in behind racist police and court actions.
Also: These unindicted deaths? These are not a bug in the system. They are a feature. Even worse, these aren’t introduced by the code, they’re part of the language and the hardware.
Social justice *now*. End neo-fascism *now*. End death penalty culture *now*. End the mindless worship of police and military power *now*. End victim blaming *now*.
The world is not changed by superheroes. It’s changed by ordinary people choosing to step outside the machines of injustice they’ve been assigned to.
I wrote “End entitlement culture *now*.” but I took it out, realizing it would be misread by some.
The worst entitlement culture is the one that says that prosperity is a mark of moral goodness, and poverty a sign of disfavor of God for moral weakness.
The worst entitlement culture is the one that says white boys are destined for prosperity and power, and their “youthful transgressions” just a thing to be grown out of, while black boys are destined for criminality, and their“youthful transgressions” a sign of things to come, to be addressed harshly as a curb to the inevitable.
The worst entitlement culture sees a young black man with a sword, a young black man with a BB gun, a black CHILD with a toy gun, and sees a threat to be gunned down…while cheering for open carry.
The worst entitlement culture sees black people treated badly and takes refuge in victim blaming—they must have *done* something to *deserve* that.
The worst entitlement culture says that the emotional discomfort of white people merits the death of black people.
The worst entitlement culture says that the emotional discomfort of black people…the expectations of servility and saintliness…are to be simply accepted and endured.
The worst entitlement culture looks on at hungry children and says, “well, you shouldn’t have had them, then” and “I earned my wealth.”
Wanting safety and warmth and health for one’s children, one’s elderly, one’s working poor? That’s not entitlement. That’s justice.
What do you take with you, if you have to make your life fit into a steamer trunk? A bindle? What you can carry in two hands?
What do you take with you when you have months and days to consider? What do you take with you when you have only hours, or seconds?
What do you take with you when you know you are returning? What do you take with you when you think you will never see this home again?
What do you take with you when the other end will be familiar? What do you take with you when the other end is unimaginably different?
What do you take with you when you know you can buy whatever you need at the other end? What do you take with you when you have no portable wealth?
What do you take with you when you are taking little children? What do you take with you when you have life-altering illnesses?
I think about this often. About the similarities and differences between being a traveler and an immigrant. Between fleeing a fire and fleeing a marriage. Living out of a suitcase, a car, a backpack, a boat. About identities we carry with us in our minds, and those we prove with certified documents. About home as talismans and home as a palate. Home as a palette, too. And on a pallet.
No quotes to start off this entry, breaking with tradition, because we’re all clear on what the horrible things that might be said are.
Wishing you a gathering free of the sort of upsetting conversation that troubles the digestion, but if you aren’t so lucky, there’s always gifting them with a social justice coaching session!
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure a year in the life…”
—”Seasons of Love” from Rent
Two months and ten days.
That’s the amount of time between the global outcry, “Let the Syrian Refugees In!” after the heartwrenching image of a small boy on a beach, to the current calls to “Keep the Syrian Refugees Out!”
How transient the sentiment, that the face of Syrians fleeing war has gone from the desperate families running across European fields, tripped by a sneering camera woman that we jeered, to some menacing phantom terrorist. (That passport? Faked. Will an account from The Paper of Record suffice for you?)
Two months and ten days after the limp body of a child made us feel that we could all, any of us, be the haggard and bereaved, many of us find the shocked and bloodied Parisians much more kin, and join in with a chorus of suspicion.
Two months and ten days after the poetry of Warsan Shire burst out in public view, speaking for the why of refugees—
no one leaves home unless
home is the mouth of a shark
you only run for the border
when you see the whole city running as well…”
(I will not quote further from her deeply moving poem. You can find it elsewhere online, but I do not have her permission to use it here, and so I will not simply take it. I hope that the site I linked has her permission and has offered her recompense.)
Two months and ten days. Aylan Kurdi, I’m sorry.
It’s hard to believe that this still happens in 2015…”
Dear white allies of social justice,
When you say, “hard to believe” — what comes across is, “I live in a white bubble, and I continue to be mired in the apparent reality of it. I approach the reporting of my friends of color with doubt, because of the disparity between their experience and mine, and have not yet come to interrogating the very real divide that exists between us because of systemic issues.”
This is not a harmless thing you’re saying, this “hard to believe”.
When will you stop finding it hard to believe? When will you stop putting us to tests that you yourself would find difficult to pass? When will you stop demanding excellence in reporting and conduct from us, when you give whiteness all the slack?
When will you stop with the disparity in “well, maybe…” for white transgressions when POC who are not absolutely saintly are excoriated?
I don’t see color. Racism starts when people distinguish between people because of skin tone.”—(not from the Dictionary of Social Justice)
What color is a sheet of paper?
“Well, it’s white, unless it’s colored paper.”
“Why is it white by default?”
“Things just show up better on white paper.”
There’s an art exercise where one draws on black paper instead of white. Often that results in someone using white marks on black just as if it were black marks on white paper—a simple inversion—but sometimes, it leads to a deeper shift in concept. What happens when you paint with light instead of dark? When you make dark the default, instead of the colored-in?
What if you went further? What if, instead of marking the paper, you used pinpricks and knife cuts? What if instead of light shining on the paper, you assumed light shining from behind the paper? What color paper would be useful in that situation?
White paper is the default “best” for a whole set of parameters we rarely examine.
…but we bleach our tree pulp paper to achieve whiteness because of those unexamined parameters.
Assuming the undefined “person” is White carries a similar set of unexamined parameters and consequences. When, as a person perceived as White by those around you, you assume that “color blind” means “like the default person” and your default person is white, this is like handing out only black crayons and not noticing that some people are not using white paper. The crayon choice was made without considering the impact it would have on papers outside your [unexamined] default assumption.
“But I offered the entire box!”
And how were the colors in the box chosen? And why are we using crayons? Why are we assuming putting down marks on the paper?
Imagine living your whole life as colored paper in a world that assumes paper is white. “If you just put down your marks carefully, and with good attention to placement, your message will be easily understood!”